I want to be a lost poem in a stranger's coat pocket that conveys the importance of you,
To assure you of my desire,
To assure you of my dreams.
I want all the possibilities of you in writing.
I want to give you your reflection.
I want your eyes on me.
I want everything before you to follow us
And leave a trail behind us.
I want never to say good-bye to you,
Even on the street corner nor phone.
I want. . . . . . I want so much
I'm breathless.
I want to bring my power in a poem to burn a hole in your pocket,
So then I could sew it.
I want you to be distant and feel you close.
I want endless days when its day,
And nighttime never to end when its night.
I want all seasons in one day.
I want the sun to set before us,
And come up in front of us.
I want to think you're thoughts,
Because they're mine.
I want only what's urging you.
I want to get in the way of your barriers.
I want you to be tender like you do already.
I want to say we meet for a reason,
And I want that reason to be bigger then us,
And I want it to take over us,
I want to forget,
I want to remember us.
I want your smile always,
And your grimace's too.
I want your scare on my lips,
I want your disappointments in my heart,
I want your strengths in my soul,
And your soul in my eyes.
I want to believe everything you say,
And I do.
I want you to tell me what's best,
When I don't know.
When your lost,
I want to find you and drag you from the darkness.
A site for me to release my thoughts, my heart and soul for the world to see!
reminisce
I reminisce for you,
I reminisce the days,
I try to forget,
But the feelings never go away.
I reminisce for you,
I reminisce the nights,
For the things we did,
And how it was so right.
I reminisce for the love,
For the love that was always there,
I reminisce, I reminisce and I know in my heart,
That you really did care.
Even though my mind played tricks on me,
And I cant seem to let you go,
I believe it's because your still loving me,
I reminisce, I reminisce,
And the memories tell me so.
I reminisce the days,
I try to forget,
But the feelings never go away.
I reminisce for you,
I reminisce the nights,
For the things we did,
And how it was so right.
I reminisce for the love,
For the love that was always there,
I reminisce, I reminisce and I know in my heart,
That you really did care.
Even though my mind played tricks on me,
And I cant seem to let you go,
I believe it's because your still loving me,
I reminisce, I reminisce,
And the memories tell me so.
Love does not end
Every one has had one
this life time
or a life before.
A love one can not forget
stays in your heart
never to end.
A special love
you always carry
to the ends of time.
The love you have
will last a life time
in this life or the pat.
A love that never ends
even though their life has end
it carries on through out the years.
You know in your heart
you will meet again
and this love does not end.
this life time
or a life before.
A love one can not forget
stays in your heart
never to end.
A special love
you always carry
to the ends of time.
The love you have
will last a life time
in this life or the pat.
A love that never ends
even though their life has end
it carries on through out the years.
You know in your heart
you will meet again
and this love does not end.
A Mark
In my eyes everyone can see the pain
They see the stain across my heart
They see where I was lied to and then they see the truth,
yes they see both marks.
They stand back as a voyer, they watch with no response
does that make them guilty of the sin that was just done?
They tell its going to be ok
They say "its her he loves"
The glare i get confronts me
once again i feel undone...
For days we go without speaking
this is very rare for us
i don't want the friendship to end this way
but i'm lost for what to say
do i put it all on the line
or do we let fate choose our way
I pick up the phone but feel compelled to put it down
I care enough about you so why do i feel like a clown?
Surely i can explain and hopefully ease you pain
but what i'm scared of most is putting another mark on your heart and one on mine.
They see the stain across my heart
They see where I was lied to and then they see the truth,
yes they see both marks.
They stand back as a voyer, they watch with no response
does that make them guilty of the sin that was just done?
They tell its going to be ok
They say "its her he loves"
The glare i get confronts me
once again i feel undone...
For days we go without speaking
this is very rare for us
i don't want the friendship to end this way
but i'm lost for what to say
do i put it all on the line
or do we let fate choose our way
I pick up the phone but feel compelled to put it down
I care enough about you so why do i feel like a clown?
Surely i can explain and hopefully ease you pain
but what i'm scared of most is putting another mark on your heart and one on mine.
Try your best
Life doesn't always turn out the way you want
no white picket fence, no handsome prince
there seems more lows then there are highs
you wonder if its all worthwhile
The courage to face another day is hard to find sometimes
that smiling face to hide behind is starting to show the pain
but no one does notice, least no one you know
you suffer in silence with no one to hear your screams
the constant warning signs that your not happy here
you try to reach out but it falls on deaf ears
you try each day to hold back the tears
Some days are good, but most are bad
with no one to talk to it sends you mad
your inner most thoughts and expressions are bound
the key to your heart is yet to be found
Their love gets further and further away
people start to care less and less each day
You try your best yet it seems to be your worst
nothing is ever good enough, not unless you come first
life's mountains are big and steep to climb
Is life really worth it... Not all of the time.
no white picket fence, no handsome prince
there seems more lows then there are highs
you wonder if its all worthwhile
The courage to face another day is hard to find sometimes
that smiling face to hide behind is starting to show the pain
but no one does notice, least no one you know
you suffer in silence with no one to hear your screams
the constant warning signs that your not happy here
you try to reach out but it falls on deaf ears
you try each day to hold back the tears
Some days are good, but most are bad
with no one to talk to it sends you mad
your inner most thoughts and expressions are bound
the key to your heart is yet to be found
Their love gets further and further away
people start to care less and less each day
You try your best yet it seems to be your worst
nothing is ever good enough, not unless you come first
life's mountains are big and steep to climb
Is life really worth it... Not all of the time.
external damage
External damage, superficial cuts
inflicted to hide the gaping wounds internal.
physical scars to show wounds that never heal
trust is lost, perhaps never to be regained.
taken from me, all that was left
broken inside and out
desperate to escape the pain
shadows linger where light once shown
dark clouds obstruct my eyes
never again whole, forever shattered and lost
damage nonrepairable
numb me on the inside
let me escape the memories in my mind
take me on the waves in the sea of dampened pain
peace is a lie, only distilled pain can i gain
myself was stolen from me, never to be regained
all that's left is the emptiness and pain
Within
Sleepless nights,
dreadful dreams,
are haunting me.
The mysterious sounds
of the night,
are very frightening me.
Panic and rage
Runs through my body
The devil is trying to get in.
Day after day
I fight off the urges
That would be so satisfying
A battle rages
Deep within my soul
It's all I can do to hold on.
Prayer is my weapon,
faith gives me peace of mind,
to stop the demons from taking over.
Depression knocks me down,
Grace picks me back up,
As the battle still rages
I pray and pray
For the fight to end
But I know the battle is still within.
dreadful dreams,
are haunting me.
The mysterious sounds
of the night,
are very frightening me.
Panic and rage
Runs through my body
The devil is trying to get in.
Day after day
I fight off the urges
That would be so satisfying
A battle rages
Deep within my soul
It's all I can do to hold on.
Prayer is my weapon,
faith gives me peace of mind,
to stop the demons from taking over.
Depression knocks me down,
Grace picks me back up,
As the battle still rages
I pray and pray
For the fight to end
But I know the battle is still within.
Me in the Mirror
I look in the mirror and see a girl,
Who is staring back at me.
I don't know who she is,
Because she's not the girl I wana be.
She puts a smile on,
While inside she is falling apart.
She says, "I'm okay",
As pain fills her heart.
She pretends not to care,
As everyone slowly walks away.
She hides behind her mask,
And pretends to be okay.
She is scared to open up,
And call someone her best friend.
They all turn out the same,
And never really care in the end.
She is scared to let people close,
It always ends up as heartache.
She decides to trust someone,
But it always ends up as a big mistake.
She feels like a stranger in her own home,
Like she doesn't even belong.
She tries the best she can,
But it always seems to be wrong.
She freezes up at the word "love",
People throw it around too much.
Her muscles constrict,
As she is afraid to be touched.
She has ideas for the future,
Hopes and dreams of her own.
But she doesn't hold her breath,
Because disappointment is all she has ever known.
She asks, "Why am I never good enough",
"Why am I always second choice"?
People tell her she's got to stand up for what she wants,
She's got to find her own voice.
I know who I wanna be,
It's all so much clearer.
But the fact of life is,
I'm only the girl in the mirror.
Who is staring back at me.
I don't know who she is,
Because she's not the girl I wana be.
She puts a smile on,
While inside she is falling apart.
She says, "I'm okay",
As pain fills her heart.
She pretends not to care,
As everyone slowly walks away.
She hides behind her mask,
And pretends to be okay.
She is scared to open up,
And call someone her best friend.
They all turn out the same,
And never really care in the end.
She is scared to let people close,
It always ends up as heartache.
She decides to trust someone,
But it always ends up as a big mistake.
She feels like a stranger in her own home,
Like she doesn't even belong.
She tries the best she can,
But it always seems to be wrong.
She freezes up at the word "love",
People throw it around too much.
Her muscles constrict,
As she is afraid to be touched.
She has ideas for the future,
Hopes and dreams of her own.
But she doesn't hold her breath,
Because disappointment is all she has ever known.
She asks, "Why am I never good enough",
"Why am I always second choice"?
People tell her she's got to stand up for what she wants,
She's got to find her own voice.
I know who I wanna be,
It's all so much clearer.
But the fact of life is,
I'm only the girl in the mirror.
Hold me Close
Hold me close and don’t let go;
I'm so scared to be alone.
I've been by myself for too long,
And always had to be strong.
Now I only want to rest;
And lay my head on your chest.
Hold me close and don’t let go;
These wars I fight no one knows.
Now whisper how you love me,
Say it tender and softly.
I am weary and soon will sleep,
But with you no longer will I weep.
So hold me close and don't let go,
For I never want to be alone.
I'm so scared to be alone.
I've been by myself for too long,
And always had to be strong.
Now I only want to rest;
And lay my head on your chest.
Hold me close and don’t let go;
These wars I fight no one knows.
Now whisper how you love me,
Say it tender and softly.
I am weary and soon will sleep,
But with you no longer will I weep.
So hold me close and don't let go,
For I never want to be alone.
Lost & Falling
Life frozen or caught on fire,
why does it matter?
Cut deep or shallow scratch,
in narrow alleys with a patch of darkness.
Falling up or getting down,
a cup of glass cutting our throats.
Mass collections of suicide notes,
and a small amount of hope.
Falling into death in deep with darkness,
seeking thought or maybe not.
Going in circles with out a fight,
not slavery and so far out of sight.
Loss and false hopes binding us down,
its our cost of not being found.
Sounds of voices peek in our heads,
fallen asleep deep in our beds.
Graves of memories found in our dreams,
deep dreams filling with passion and rising with action.
Faith calling and showing our fates,
knowing of death and full of hates.
Sedating our minds and lost hopes of love,
kind and gentle thoughts of warmness,
Killed our fate of endless fought circles,
loneliness found here between worlds.
The sound of calling,
found and falling.
why does it matter?
Cut deep or shallow scratch,
in narrow alleys with a patch of darkness.
Falling up or getting down,
a cup of glass cutting our throats.
Mass collections of suicide notes,
and a small amount of hope.
Falling into death in deep with darkness,
seeking thought or maybe not.
Going in circles with out a fight,
not slavery and so far out of sight.
Loss and false hopes binding us down,
its our cost of not being found.
Sounds of voices peek in our heads,
fallen asleep deep in our beds.
Graves of memories found in our dreams,
deep dreams filling with passion and rising with action.
Faith calling and showing our fates,
knowing of death and full of hates.
Sedating our minds and lost hopes of love,
kind and gentle thoughts of warmness,
Killed our fate of endless fought circles,
loneliness found here between worlds.
The sound of calling,
found and falling.
Roses
Many times tears are shed,
does it make us dead?
Life, that - tears can create,
for that, tears you should not hate...
So let the tears just rain,
get released from your pain...
In the stone, roses can grow,
just feed them, let the tears flow...
Shelter the roses in love and care,
even out from stone, grow, they dare...
"Holidaze"
Everyday we get to give the gift of life, it can be painful, it can be terrifying, but in the end it's worth it. Every time. We all have the opportunity to give. Maybe the gifts are not as dramatic as what happens in the operating room, maybe the gift is to try and make a simple apology, maybe it's to understand another person's point of view, maybe it's to hold a secret for a friend. The joy supposedly is in the giving, so when the joy is gone, when the giving starts to feel more like a burden, that's when you stop. But if you're like most people I know, you give till it hurts, and then you give some more.
Bottom of my Core
As I watch life pass by I see my heart start to cry.
I allowed myself to tear down my walls, now I feel the water falls.
One by one I trusted more. Now I'm empty inside to the bottom of my core.
My heart rekindled love, magic & so much more.
Now you hurt me, bruised me & made my heart sore.
Just like all the others in my past.
You say your nice & you care but that didn't last.
I gave my heart, my soul & body...me.
Rejected so you can just be!
I allowed myself to tear down my walls, now I feel the water falls.
One by one I trusted more. Now I'm empty inside to the bottom of my core.
My heart rekindled love, magic & so much more.
Now you hurt me, bruised me & made my heart sore.
Just like all the others in my past.
You say your nice & you care but that didn't last.
I gave my heart, my soul & body...me.
Rejected so you can just be!
You
ocean waves
wash my soul
cleanse me of your smile
and the memory of
ten fingers
entwined forever
in a hopeless wish
wash my soul
cleanse me of your smile
and the memory of
ten fingers
entwined forever
in a hopeless wish
Darkness
I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me
and I slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the waters starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that once held so much life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness
But why doesn't someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness's grasp?
because no one knows I stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
I don't want to fight anymore
I've given into darkness
Smiling for the World
All around me;
sadness,
regret,
pain,
and within.
The world doesn’t care to know
of my grief.
Smile,
they’ll feel better about themselves.
Where misery
is commonplace,
they don’t care to hear my problems.
Smile,
so they can go on with their lives.
It doesn’t matter
how I feel inside.
Keep it to myself
and don’t forget to smile,
so they can pretend all is well.
All around me;
sadness,
regret,
pain,
and within.
Putting on my face,
and smiling for the world
sadness,
regret,
pain,
and within.
The world doesn’t care to know
of my grief.
Smile,
they’ll feel better about themselves.
Where misery
is commonplace,
they don’t care to hear my problems.
Smile,
so they can go on with their lives.
It doesn’t matter
how I feel inside.
Keep it to myself
and don’t forget to smile,
so they can pretend all is well.
All around me;
sadness,
regret,
pain,
and within.
Putting on my face,
and smiling for the world
Like You
I want to be like you
Its so silent underground
I can feel you in snowflakes
of your love that has fallen
I can sense your footsteps
That are all but forgotten
Its not your thoughts that linger here
Its the hearts that wish to hear
You whisper in the wind
Although I feel like giving in
But I only wish to be like you
Its so silent underground
I can feel you in snowflakes
of your love that has fallen
I can sense your footsteps
That are all but forgotten
Its not your thoughts that linger here
Its the hearts that wish to hear
You whisper in the wind
Although I feel like giving in
But I only wish to be like you
Window
A demon on horseback rides in the night
the black dog runs beside
when Hecate cries
the harpies answer
and someone will die
The bitter winds whisper his deeds
only the dark clouds watch him leave
a face no one has lived to see
what could be so insidious
so hideous
leave you cold and pale clutching your chest
steals your last breath
scares you to death
If you live alone at night
and the winter moon is full and bright
never look outside
listen for the banshee cries
the face of abomination, Satan's creation
beget from the darkest region of the mind
A demon on horseback rides in the night
the black dog runs beside
when Hecate cries
the harpies answer
and someone will die
the black dog runs beside
when Hecate cries
the harpies answer
and someone will die
The bitter winds whisper his deeds
only the dark clouds watch him leave
a face no one has lived to see
what could be so insidious
so hideous
leave you cold and pale clutching your chest
steals your last breath
scares you to death
If you live alone at night
and the winter moon is full and bright
never look outside
listen for the banshee cries
the face of abomination, Satan's creation
beget from the darkest region of the mind
A demon on horseback rides in the night
the black dog runs beside
when Hecate cries
the harpies answer
and someone will die
Secret Need
she lost her soul
her enigma, her mole
her salutation, her goal
she lost her soul
her words felt muted
and there was not
one to be disputed
the empty buckets
lined the hills
every mouth was a fish
looking for water
she felt their hunger
ignored the murder
she was somewhere
far from herself
while everyone was here
she was in every body
that was scared
her soul was scattered
fettered to a door
she gave it all away
and then she wanted more
her secret need
while she cried silently
was to feel real in some
insane place where
people could not see
her enigma, her mole
her salutation, her goal
she lost her soul
her words felt muted
and there was not
one to be disputed
the empty buckets
lined the hills
every mouth was a fish
looking for water
she felt their hunger
ignored the murder
she was somewhere
far from herself
while everyone was here
she was in every body
that was scared
her soul was scattered
fettered to a door
she gave it all away
and then she wanted more
her secret need
while she cried silently
was to feel real in some
insane place where
people could not see
I F@%king Hate You
i could fill this poem
with metaphors and similes
i could fill it with beautiful words
if i wanted to
i could put effort into this
but you are so stupid
you wouldn't realize this is about you
and if you did
you wouldn't know what its about
so instead of pretty words
and poetry
but this isn't a poem
so I'll just come out and say it
i fucking hate you
i wish you were dead
you're a liar
you're a user
you're a monster
if you don't die soon
I'll kill you myself
do i sound angry?
well I'm headed to therapy
so calm down
he'll give me my meds
i won't kill you
today.
with metaphors and similes
i could fill it with beautiful words
if i wanted to
i could put effort into this
but you are so stupid
you wouldn't realize this is about you
and if you did
you wouldn't know what its about
so instead of pretty words
and poetry
but this isn't a poem
so I'll just come out and say it
i fucking hate you
i wish you were dead
you're a liar
you're a user
you're a monster
if you don't die soon
I'll kill you myself
do i sound angry?
well I'm headed to therapy
so calm down
he'll give me my meds
i won't kill you
today.
Being Real
our relationship has never followed the rules.
we've never been the kind of a fairy tale couple you see in the movies.
it seems like we're either head over heels in love or crazy with frustration.
we're not perfect, and neither is this relationship.
but you know what? it's ours.
all ours the little jokes that only we understand, the way our hands naturally find each others and the memories that seem so wonderful now that we look back our relationship will never be perfect, but it will always be an important part of me.
i don't know whats in store for us.
but i know i want you in my life.
i know i love you.
and i know that I'd rather be "real" with you than "fairy tale" with anyone else.
we've never been the kind of a fairy tale couple you see in the movies.
it seems like we're either head over heels in love or crazy with frustration.
we're not perfect, and neither is this relationship.
but you know what? it's ours.
all ours the little jokes that only we understand, the way our hands naturally find each others and the memories that seem so wonderful now that we look back our relationship will never be perfect, but it will always be an important part of me.
i don't know whats in store for us.
but i know i want you in my life.
i know i love you.
and i know that I'd rather be "real" with you than "fairy tale" with anyone else.
Someday...I won't be There
Someday you'll love me.
Someday you'll care.
Someday you'll treasure the moments we've shared.
Someday you'll learn, love is not a game.
Then you'll realize, I'm not the same.
My heart will have left you, my love will have died. T
hen you'll realize the tears I've cried.
Someday you'll love, someday you'll care, someday you'll want me and I won't be there.
Someday you'll care.
Someday you'll treasure the moments we've shared.
Someday you'll learn, love is not a game.
Then you'll realize, I'm not the same.
My heart will have left you, my love will have died. T
hen you'll realize the tears I've cried.
Someday you'll love, someday you'll care, someday you'll want me and I won't be there.
Love that Grows
I love you more everyday, I love you in every way. You're the one that I adore, I hope you love me even more. Words can't express the way I feel, the love I feel for you is real. So I hope that you will always know my love for you will always grow. I hope we never grow apart because you will forever have my heart.
Part of Me
there's a place in me where your fingerprints still rest.
Your kisses still linger. And your whisper softly echo.
Its the place where part of you will forever be a part of me.
Your kisses still linger. And your whisper softly echo.
Its the place where part of you will forever be a part of me.
Notice Me
I wish he noticed me, or knew we were meant to be.
I wish he knew how much I've tried, or seen how much I've cried. I wish he could realize, that I'm not telling lies. I wish he was all mine, he just doesn't see the sign. I wish we could be together, always here for each other. I wish I could stop this wishing, and he could see what he's missing.
I wish he knew how much I've tried, or seen how much I've cried. I wish he could realize, that I'm not telling lies. I wish he was all mine, he just doesn't see the sign. I wish we could be together, always here for each other. I wish I could stop this wishing, and he could see what he's missing.
Stuck on you
I don't know whether
I'm sad or mad
hurt or confused
at the end of the day i feel so used
beaten and broken, by the words that were spoken
your my everything
I'm your nothing
i don't know what it is
but I'm stuck on you
I'm sad or mad
hurt or confused
at the end of the day i feel so used
beaten and broken, by the words that were spoken
your my everything
I'm your nothing
i don't know what it is
but I'm stuck on you
Unseen
most of the greatest things in life are unseen...
that's why we close our eyes while we kiss, cry, and dream
that's why we close our eyes while we kiss, cry, and dream
To My Special Friend
you told me about your worries and told me about your fears I'm sorry i couldn't be there those days and calm you tears...
i think about your future i think about your past and those days i couldn't be there but i wish i could of helped you get through your pain that i know i cant release because it's all locked up inside your heart and you already have thrown away the keys...
i wish i could take away all your sufferings and sorrow i wish i could say for sure that were all promised a better tomorrow...but the fact of the matter is that we don't know what life brings us...
so just know I'm always here for you no matter what comes at us...this world goes through so much like criminals and mass destruction but i'll be here to hold your hand when the light goes out in every direction i'll be there through thick and thin all just to say you are my friend...
i think about your future i think about your past and those days i couldn't be there but i wish i could of helped you get through your pain that i know i cant release because it's all locked up inside your heart and you already have thrown away the keys...
i wish i could take away all your sufferings and sorrow i wish i could say for sure that were all promised a better tomorrow...but the fact of the matter is that we don't know what life brings us...
so just know I'm always here for you no matter what comes at us...this world goes through so much like criminals and mass destruction but i'll be here to hold your hand when the light goes out in every direction i'll be there through thick and thin all just to say you are my friend...
To Someone Special
If I had one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you!
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you!
Lost Love
I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so big & brown.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft & smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy, And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I LOVE YOU", And the way you're always there.
I love the way you touch me, Always sending chills down my spin.
I love that you are with me, And glad that you are mine.
Your eyes so big & brown.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft & smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy, And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I LOVE YOU", And the way you're always there.
I love the way you touch me, Always sending chills down my spin.
I love that you are with me, And glad that you are mine.
Crazy in Love
If I Die Before I Wake, I Want You To Know That Life's Been Great. You Make Me Smile, You Make My Day. You Always Know Just What To Say. So Thank you Baby, You're A Dream Come True...I've Fallen Crazy In Love With You.
Why?
Why do i love you with all my heart?
why did i fall for you from the start???
why did you cause me so much pain?
you stuck to my heart like a stain...
why couldn't i see that you weren't here for me?
i shouldn't of believed you when you would say that you'd make the pain go away.
you played me heart like a game.
i cant believe you never felt the same...
Now i sit in my room all alone and pray that one day you'll call my phone.
i cant believe you ended it after our 2 years and it didn't bother you when you saw me with tears.
i cant stop thinking of you and cant say goodbye.
i still get jealous when i see you with another girl.
But why did u come back, when i was finally letting go!!??
but i still get the butterflies when you just say hello...why can't i forget you and put you in my past?
I guess a part of me will always believe that we were meant to last.
All 4 U
For you i would climb the highest mountain peak..I'd swim the deepest of all oceans to find your love once again.. i would cross the widest of all rivers and walk the hottest desert sand just to have you by my side...you were the one who made me whole you captured my heart and touched my soul..you stepped out of my dreams gave me new hope and showed me what true love means....cant you see when you came into my life you were my reason to live i was falling apart and because of you i didn't let go...Each time i see you my heart skips a beat..Your more than beautiful in both body and mind..more beauty????..Ill never find... you were the one god sent from above... the angel i needed ...the one who i truly loved.
life is too short
grudges are a waste of a perfect happiness, laugh when u can, apologize when you should, and let go what u can't change, love deeply and forgive quickly, take chances, give everything and have no regrets. life's too short to be unhappy. you have to take the good with the bad, smile when you're sad, love what u got, and always remember what u had. always forgive,never forget, learn from your mistakes, but never regret!!
Numb
painless. numb. discarding my love. endlessly blue, this colour created by you. hatred you've made, whilst digging my grave, i know not how to behave, me your loves slave. why can't you just hate me? why are you waiting?? to break me? forsake me? I'm hopelessly shaking. I'm wasting my words my love and my truth on cowardice lies created by you. wont you just end this, is it not true? how you love another and their waiting for you.
Caring too Much
i care for you so much, wish i felt you knew i was there. this loneliness i have is almost too much to bear. how and why can i love you and you seem not to care?
Better than being a friend
why do i feel there's no one out there for me, has past hatred of love made me so blind i cant see? and if that's not the case and i continue to dwell in this hell will i tell when i find him? i need some one to love because I'm not a fighter. and to all of those men i love who only want friends, please open your eyes I'm much better than them.
Single Cage Solitary Cell
why must i hate myself so much while longing for an others touch, a simple talk to show you care but again alone, no ones there. men love me as a friend is that love enough to be used again? and again i dwell in my own hell a single cage solitary cell.
My friend
you told me about your worries and told me about your fears I'm sorry i couldn't be there on those days and calm your tears...i think about your future i think about your past and those days i couldn't be there but i wish i could of helped you get through your pain that i know i cant release because its all locked up inside your heart and you already have thrown away the keys.
i wish i could take away all your sufferings and sorrow i wish i could say for sure that were all promised a better tomorrow...but the fact of the matter is that we don't know what life brings us...so just know I'm always here for you no matter what comes at us...this world goes through so much like criminals and mass destruction but I'll be here to hold your hand when the light goes out in every direction I'll be there through thick and thin all just to say you are my friend.
i wish i could take away all your sufferings and sorrow i wish i could say for sure that were all promised a better tomorrow...but the fact of the matter is that we don't know what life brings us...so just know I'm always here for you no matter what comes at us...this world goes through so much like criminals and mass destruction but I'll be here to hold your hand when the light goes out in every direction I'll be there through thick and thin all just to say you are my friend.
True Friend
There is this guy..he means the world to me ..although he doesn't know..i really wished he could see...when i had no reason to go on he came into my life picked me up and made me strong...
even though i fall down every now and then..he has always been near as my one true friend...we knew each other heart to heart and without saying a word we were never far apart...
i always wanted to tell him, he was more than my one true friend and my whole life story that will never end...but then one day he fell down too...i thought i was done for i didn't know what to do...
i could see the pain in his eyes as he tried not to cry...everyday he came with a smile but i could tell it was all a Lie....he tried to smile but i still could see the pain inside of him and it was becoming a part of me...he was also full of secrets just like me...but what was wrong i just didn't know..i wanted to be there through and through....i was bleeding and i did cry...but i could see he was bleeding more and needed someone by his side...
so i stood near just as he once stood by me..now i want him to know I'll be there no matter what went down or what went wrong..I'll always be there with an ear to listen to his song...
a song about life, a song about love.. a song about anything whatever it was..because in the end after all that is said i will still be here for My One True Friend.
even though i fall down every now and then..he has always been near as my one true friend...we knew each other heart to heart and without saying a word we were never far apart...
i always wanted to tell him, he was more than my one true friend and my whole life story that will never end...but then one day he fell down too...i thought i was done for i didn't know what to do...
i could see the pain in his eyes as he tried not to cry...everyday he came with a smile but i could tell it was all a Lie....he tried to smile but i still could see the pain inside of him and it was becoming a part of me...he was also full of secrets just like me...but what was wrong i just didn't know..i wanted to be there through and through....i was bleeding and i did cry...but i could see he was bleeding more and needed someone by his side...
so i stood near just as he once stood by me..now i want him to know I'll be there no matter what went down or what went wrong..I'll always be there with an ear to listen to his song...
a song about life, a song about love.. a song about anything whatever it was..because in the end after all that is said i will still be here for My One True Friend.
You have Changed Me
When we met....i never dreamed how much my life would change....how much your love could touch every part of my life...i didn't realize what i had been missing...i never imagined how wonderful i could feel...how truly alive my spirit could become...you have awakened feelings i never knew existed...you have helped me see a whole new world of possibilities..Because you came into my life..my soul is filled with tender passion and my heart has found the sweetest love i ever could have wished for...I love you!
Love Hurts
I know how to say lots of things to every one else except to you but if I could I'd say that I love you so much it hurts sometimes
you left me
you left me when i needed you the most. i was alone i had no one. so i had to go back to him. you left me, you're the one that kept me strong and straight but you left me so i went back
Being Vulnerable
being vulnerable doesn't make you weak, it makes you incredibly strong. it makes you strong because you know if you get hurt or broken you're still strong enough to pick yourself up and just keep going.
New History
"Sometimes the past is something you just can't let go of. And sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present. Stand still for a second, and you'll be left behind. But as hard as we try to move forward, as tempting as it is to never look back, the past always comes back to bite us in the ass. And as history shows us again and again, those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it".
Randon Thoughts
I want you for always, days, years,eternities!
someday somebody will walk into your life an make you reliezed why it never worked with anyone else.
someday somebody will walk into your life an make you reliezed why it never worked with anyone else.
They are Your Life
when you actually love some one, you no longer have your life, beacause they are your life, you get up for them;breath for them; live for them. they are the reason they make your life worth living!
He's Extraordinary!
love makes you see ordinary things in a extraordinary way<3...he is extraordinary!!
Thinking of Him
I always go to sleep thinking of you, hoping I see your beautiful face when I wake up cause that's the best gift anyone can ever give me.
Should I
should I put my heart on my sleve once again?
should I take the risk of being hurt?
should I do this when I just got broken hearted?
should I be so scared to start something new, but then again I'm using "I", am I so selfish to just think of me...when love is more then just I, its we?
I don't know if I can mend yet another broken heart, he's my bestfriend I don't know what to do, what to feel , or even if I should say "I love you" because down deep inside I know I do.
should I take the risk of being hurt?
should I do this when I just got broken hearted?
should I be so scared to start something new, but then again I'm using "I", am I so selfish to just think of me...when love is more then just I, its we?
I don't know if I can mend yet another broken heart, he's my bestfriend I don't know what to do, what to feel , or even if I should say "I love you" because down deep inside I know I do.
Scared
I'm scared because, I don't want any one else to hold your hand.
I don't want anyone else to hold your heart.
I don't want anyone else to kiss your lips I don't want anyone else to be in your arms I'm scared because I don't want anyone else to take my spot.
I don't want anyone else to hold your heart.
I don't want anyone else to kiss your lips I don't want anyone else to be in your arms I'm scared because I don't want anyone else to take my spot.
Hate
I hate that I love you so much, I hate all this pain,I hate that you lie to me it makes me so vain.
I hate that you ignore me when you clearly make it obvious, I hate that I know its over even before this year was started.
I hate that I fell for you so hard thinking it's kinda odd.I wish I didn't fall for you so hard, believe everything you said, trust you so much ,and love you with all my heart, my only wish is not knowing it was over, happy endings don't happen with this love it just simply had to end...in due time my heart will mend.
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