Secret Need

she lost her soul
her enigma, her mole
her salutation, her goal
she lost her soul
her words felt muted
and there was not
one to be disputed
the empty buckets
lined the hills
every mouth was a fish
looking for water
she felt their hunger
ignored the murder
she was somewhere
far from herself
while everyone was here
she was in every body
that was scared
her soul was scattered
fettered to a door
she gave it all away
and then she wanted more
her secret need
while she cried silently
was to feel real in some
insane place where
people could not see