I wish I could describe you
You're nothing but a dream
Leaving me nothing to hold onto
I feel like I could scream
I would sleep forever
Just to dream you again
Oh, can't you come to me
To free me of this pain?
I'm lying on my bed again
Waiting to fall asleep
To spend another night with you
To explore this ocean deep
I'm back in our world, I'm happy again
I see you there, and you whisk me away
And then like a bird, the time flies by
The morning arrives, much to my dismay
I cry out loud as you fade away
Begging desperately for the night to stay
My eyes open, and I close them again
Hoping to see your face for once, but nay
Again, left with nothing but the thought
That if I were to die and go to the heaven
I'd beg to live a night with you instead
After that, I'd never think of you in vain
If only I could see your face for once
If only I could feel your touch
I'd tell you how much I love you
Is that really asking for too much?
A site for me to release my thoughts, my heart and soul for the world to see!
One Wish ~*~
If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.
I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.
Random Thought for someone ~*~
A person who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is. They don't leave you because that is not love. They stay by you. They don't walk away
Cut to Deep
the bleeding wont stop,
i cut to deep,
my hand is numb,
im falling asleep.
pain is great,
i still cant believe,
when i needed you most,
you decided to leave.
my face is wet,
why am i crying,
your making her laugh,
while im here dying
i cut to deep,
my hand is numb,
im falling asleep.
pain is great,
i still cant believe,
when i needed you most,
you decided to leave.
my face is wet,
why am i crying,
your making her laugh,
while im here dying
Like a Dog
Like a dog...
-I stand by your side.
-I protect you with my life.
-I adore you and love your presence.
-I have unconditionable love for you even when you hurt me.
-I am faithful, loyal and true.
-I will always be here for you.
-I wait for you to come back patiently.
-I am lost without you.
-I love you for who you are.
Like a dog... thats how you treat me. Like a dog
-I stand by your side.
-I protect you with my life.
-I adore you and love your presence.
-I have unconditionable love for you even when you hurt me.
-I am faithful, loyal and true.
-I will always be here for you.
-I wait for you to come back patiently.
-I am lost without you.
-I love you for who you are.
Like a dog... thats how you treat me. Like a dog
All of these to me ~*~
You're the thought that starts each morning,The conclusion to each day.
You are in all that I do, And everything I say.
You're the smile on my face, The twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart, The fullness in my life.
You're the hand that's laced in mine, And the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love, My shoulder to lean on.
You're my silly, mature, caring, Thoughtful, bright, and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly, When I need to cry.
You're the dimple in my cheek, The ever-constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak, The happiness of my life.
You are all I've wanted, You are all I need.
You are all I've dreamed of, You are all of this to me.
You are in all that I do, And everything I say.
You're the smile on my face, The twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart, The fullness in my life.
You're the hand that's laced in mine, And the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love, My shoulder to lean on.
You're my silly, mature, caring, Thoughtful, bright, and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly, When I need to cry.
You're the dimple in my cheek, The ever-constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak, The happiness of my life.
You are all I've wanted, You are all I need.
You are all I've dreamed of, You are all of this to me.
Missing you Letter ~*~
I feel sad and lonely. I miss you a lot. I’ve been thinking about you all the time. I'm missing you like crazy and I think I’m going mad. I simply can't stop thinking of the special times we had. Each moment lasts an hour and each hour lasts a day, just because you went away.
I need you here beside me. You are always in my mind, by the time I wake up ti’ll I close my eyes. I just want to see your face. I want to feel your warm body, hear your precious heartbeat and be lost in your embrace.
I gaze out of the window and look up at the moon. I miss you, My Darling. Please come back to me, come back to me soon. They say hope springs eternal. Well, I only hope it's true For I can't bare the emptiness that comes from missing you.
I Miss You!
I need you here beside me. You are always in my mind, by the time I wake up ti’ll I close my eyes. I just want to see your face. I want to feel your warm body, hear your precious heartbeat and be lost in your embrace.
I gaze out of the window and look up at the moon. I miss you, My Darling. Please come back to me, come back to me soon. They say hope springs eternal. Well, I only hope it's true For I can't bare the emptiness that comes from missing you.
I Miss You!
Numb
I open my mouth
to scream but nothing comes out
i try to hit the wall
but i cant move
i want to cry
but no tears will form
i fall to the floor
unable to move,
unable to feel and speak
i have no emotion
i lie here
i lie here completely
NUMB!!!
to scream but nothing comes out
i try to hit the wall
but i cant move
i want to cry
but no tears will form
i fall to the floor
unable to move,
unable to feel and speak
i have no emotion
i lie here
i lie here completely
NUMB!!!
how did this happen?? All I think about is you... ~*~
Counting down the days until I can be in your arms again...No matter how hard it is not being able to be with you right now...I will wait forever if I have to. We may be miles apart and no where near each other's heart, but I still think of you forever and always!!!
I never knew it was possible to miss someone as much as i miss you, until i lost you. One day I will see you again. I miss more about you and us than I could possibly imagine, I wish sometimes you could see into my heart to know what this is doing to me. I miss you so much, I'd give anything just to see you again. To feel the warmth & love of your touch & just be held in your arms. In your arms i feel like i can finally breath & relax, because with you i have found someone that loves me for me...My best friend and a lover like no other<3
when i think of you my heart races, my stomach jumps, and I melt. I love you. Your smile, your personality, and your crazy randomness. Your amazing..just saying
I never knew it was possible to miss someone as much as i miss you, until i lost you. One day I will see you again. I miss more about you and us than I could possibly imagine, I wish sometimes you could see into my heart to know what this is doing to me. I miss you so much, I'd give anything just to see you again. To feel the warmth & love of your touch & just be held in your arms. In your arms i feel like i can finally breath & relax, because with you i have found someone that loves me for me...My best friend and a lover like no other<3
when i think of you my heart races, my stomach jumps, and I melt. I love you. Your smile, your personality, and your crazy randomness. Your amazing..just saying
Its hard 2 b strong when all u want 2 do is break down ~*~
In my dreams you are always there, smiling, happy & laughing - my heart is healed. When I wake, I feel the pain of knowing I may never see you again. Every day that goes by that i don't get to talk to you i try to tell myself that it doesn't bother me. unfortunately, i don't even believe it. I want to talk to you so much! I want to call you so bad. Just to hear your voice. I miss you more everyday. Just never forget i love you. No matter the distance between us, I am as close to you today as I was yesterday, for as long as you are in my heart, we are never truly far apart. Friends are separated by priorities, distances, differences, & pride; no matter what comes between us, I'll always be the friend you've known from the start
A Rant..
I thought it would be nice not to write a poem, song or quote on here today. I thought I would speak from the heart. Last Monday, someone dear to me left back home & I have felt so lost since he left. I pass the street everyday that he lived on and I start to tear up. I try to remember not to turn down it or even take another street to get home or on my way to work, but I forget and I cry.
I have many people who have come in & out of my life, some it never came down to how much this one bothers me. Maybe its because I really cared for him. Maybe it is love, I really cannot lie and say I never loved him, because I did. I still do.
When he left, I knew I couldn't ask him to stay, I knew that I had to let him see for himself what he was going back too. I needed him to see from afar what he could have had here with me... maybe I will not see him again & he'll stay there forever. He says he misses me, he says he cares deeply, and from what I can tell... he is confused but I think he also sees that he cannot be happy there too long. So why stay if you know it will end? Why put time into something that may end bad? Why invest more money and time when him or her will get hurt? Guess everyone has to cross that path on their own & see it for themselves. Just the mother hen in me wants him to avoid getting hurt or being upset.
Time is one of those inevitable things & it sucks when it stops and feels like it will never pass... a week and I feel like a month has passed. I hate it. How do you make someone see the good in you & see that there would be no wrong in what could be? Why is that everyone always goes down the messed up road first? It never turns out right? It always ends up bad! Why do men want women who are super model thin & extra maintenance? Sex that great?
Ever since I was 14, I have always worked, I have always been independent. I have never in my life relied on a man to pay my way through life. I have always felt in a relationship it's 50/50 and there is always a middle ground no matter what. If your in love & that person means so much to you that if they had to stay because they enjoyed their work & I was unhappy but wanted them still in my life, I would tell them, "Look this place sucks & I want you in my life, so unless you don't want to stay here forever, please consider moving" not just up & go.
I have moved for a guy I was with, I have also given up a lot for some men... but they also made sure that I was happy in the process and made sure what ever I gave up I could gain back... except the dancing. I do regret turning down my only chance of being a professional dancer & going to the best college ever. Now blown knees, that dream is gone. My only regret in life & after 32 years of life... that's not bad.
So how do I move forward? How do I get to place of happiness without him in my life? I never knew I could ever feel what I feel for him, I never wanted to fall in love again. I was scared that I would get hurt & right now I'm hurting, and I want to try to see the silver lining & I want to say he'll be back in my life. That he will see what could be... maybe it's denial.
I know what I want, I know what I need and I found everything in him. Go figure!
I have many people who have come in & out of my life, some it never came down to how much this one bothers me. Maybe its because I really cared for him. Maybe it is love, I really cannot lie and say I never loved him, because I did. I still do.
When he left, I knew I couldn't ask him to stay, I knew that I had to let him see for himself what he was going back too. I needed him to see from afar what he could have had here with me... maybe I will not see him again & he'll stay there forever. He says he misses me, he says he cares deeply, and from what I can tell... he is confused but I think he also sees that he cannot be happy there too long. So why stay if you know it will end? Why put time into something that may end bad? Why invest more money and time when him or her will get hurt? Guess everyone has to cross that path on their own & see it for themselves. Just the mother hen in me wants him to avoid getting hurt or being upset.
Time is one of those inevitable things & it sucks when it stops and feels like it will never pass... a week and I feel like a month has passed. I hate it. How do you make someone see the good in you & see that there would be no wrong in what could be? Why is that everyone always goes down the messed up road first? It never turns out right? It always ends up bad! Why do men want women who are super model thin & extra maintenance? Sex that great?
Ever since I was 14, I have always worked, I have always been independent. I have never in my life relied on a man to pay my way through life. I have always felt in a relationship it's 50/50 and there is always a middle ground no matter what. If your in love & that person means so much to you that if they had to stay because they enjoyed their work & I was unhappy but wanted them still in my life, I would tell them, "Look this place sucks & I want you in my life, so unless you don't want to stay here forever, please consider moving" not just up & go.
I have moved for a guy I was with, I have also given up a lot for some men... but they also made sure that I was happy in the process and made sure what ever I gave up I could gain back... except the dancing. I do regret turning down my only chance of being a professional dancer & going to the best college ever. Now blown knees, that dream is gone. My only regret in life & after 32 years of life... that's not bad.
So how do I move forward? How do I get to place of happiness without him in my life? I never knew I could ever feel what I feel for him, I never wanted to fall in love again. I was scared that I would get hurt & right now I'm hurting, and I want to try to see the silver lining & I want to say he'll be back in my life. That he will see what could be... maybe it's denial.
I know what I want, I know what I need and I found everything in him. Go figure!
What is the meaning of love?
What is the meaning of love?
Most people who claim to love someone don’t really love them, because they don’t know what love actually is.
What is love NOT?
Possessiveness is not love
Jealousy is not love
Lust is not love
Fear is not love
Keeping people all to yourself is not love
Expecting something from someone is not love
Real love is unconditional. All other “forms” of love are not really love. Most parents and kids don’t love each other, most people in relationships don’t love each other, most people on the planet never experience unconditional love in their entire lives… or at least it sure looks that way.
To love someone unconditionally means that you love the person exactly as they are, exactly as they were before, and exactly as they will be in the future – because people change all the time, so if you love the person, you will love them even if they become something you disagree with. How many parents can say that about their kids? How many people can say that about their “lover”? Love is not about you or your pleasure or your amusement. It’s not about what you get out of it or what the other person can give to you. It’s not about having a trophy you can show off with and tell people “This is *MY* girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband/son/daughter/whatever”. You do not “own” anyone. It’s not about you feeling ‘proud’ to be with someone who always agrees with everything you say and do and never does anything you disagree with. Unconditional love means that the person can just live their life exactly as they choose and you will always be there for them no matter what.
So, how does unconditional love fit in with relationships and marriage and sex and all that stuff the whole world keeps going crazy over? It doesn’t, really. It doesn’t “fit” in anywhere. Relationships are like trying to put love into a box and keep it there, except love is infinitely sized, and the box is… well, there is no box large enough. And a normal, conventional marriage is quite possibly the worst possible way to show someone how much you love them.
Unconditional love is more of a spiritual thing. It’s not bound by physical things, like blood relations and the desire to procreate. It has nothing whatsoever to do with sex. Most people are in relationships because they’re horny and/or lonely, even if they genuinely think they love the other person. But if the person they “love” suddenly lost their “equipment” for whatever reason, would they still want to be with that person? Would they get jealous if the person they “love” wanted to spend time with other people as well? Relationships based on needs are not unconditional.
In order to truly understand love, you must first forget everything you have ever learned about it from society and anyone else (including what I just said). You are the only person who can tell you what love is. The only reason I’m writing all this stuff is because people always try to fit “love” in with things like dating, relationships and marriage and all that. You can’t make any sense of it if you keep doing that. You have to get rid of everything you think you know first.
Most people who claim to love someone don’t really love them, because they don’t know what love actually is.
What is love NOT?
Possessiveness is not love
Jealousy is not love
Lust is not love
Fear is not love
Keeping people all to yourself is not love
Expecting something from someone is not love
Real love is unconditional. All other “forms” of love are not really love. Most parents and kids don’t love each other, most people in relationships don’t love each other, most people on the planet never experience unconditional love in their entire lives… or at least it sure looks that way.
To love someone unconditionally means that you love the person exactly as they are, exactly as they were before, and exactly as they will be in the future – because people change all the time, so if you love the person, you will love them even if they become something you disagree with. How many parents can say that about their kids? How many people can say that about their “lover”? Love is not about you or your pleasure or your amusement. It’s not about what you get out of it or what the other person can give to you. It’s not about having a trophy you can show off with and tell people “This is *MY* girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband/son/daughter/whatever”. You do not “own” anyone. It’s not about you feeling ‘proud’ to be with someone who always agrees with everything you say and do and never does anything you disagree with. Unconditional love means that the person can just live their life exactly as they choose and you will always be there for them no matter what.
So, how does unconditional love fit in with relationships and marriage and sex and all that stuff the whole world keeps going crazy over? It doesn’t, really. It doesn’t “fit” in anywhere. Relationships are like trying to put love into a box and keep it there, except love is infinitely sized, and the box is… well, there is no box large enough. And a normal, conventional marriage is quite possibly the worst possible way to show someone how much you love them.
Unconditional love is more of a spiritual thing. It’s not bound by physical things, like blood relations and the desire to procreate. It has nothing whatsoever to do with sex. Most people are in relationships because they’re horny and/or lonely, even if they genuinely think they love the other person. But if the person they “love” suddenly lost their “equipment” for whatever reason, would they still want to be with that person? Would they get jealous if the person they “love” wanted to spend time with other people as well? Relationships based on needs are not unconditional.
In order to truly understand love, you must first forget everything you have ever learned about it from society and anyone else (including what I just said). You are the only person who can tell you what love is. The only reason I’m writing all this stuff is because people always try to fit “love” in with things like dating, relationships and marriage and all that. You can’t make any sense of it if you keep doing that. You have to get rid of everything you think you know first.
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