Tonight~*~

i dont wanna sleep tonight you know what i want to do but i know you love it when i talk dirty nothing, i want you to wear nothing i want to watch you undress, how you do it Oh God, theres nothing like it no, i dont wanna sleep tonight i want you sweaty, hard inside me to hold my hands above my head to make me moan and wither at the lightest of your touches i want your hands on my ass as you hammer into me fill me with your fire i want to lock my legs behind your back come on, make me scream i want to move against you make you as crazy as much as you make me i clutch the blankets as we move closer, closer to ecstasy Oh God, no one, no one can make me feel, move as you do how the hell did we get on the floor? oh screw it, im on top and im loving it your eyes widen as you realize i know what im doing i bite my lip, arch my back and throw my head back as i experience wave upon wave of pleasure it takes my breath away Oh God, im glad i didnt let us sleep tonight

So Fragile

Maybe it's all in my head.
Like a dream in my bed, but in my mind the end is near
And I am soon gone, I fear.
My brain is floating in place, receiving false signals without a trace of where they were read.
For I am hanging by a thread.

A thread so fragile it cannot survive, without the body keeping it alive.
It began as cord from which I grew, arms and legs, toes and fingers too.
A lifeline of energy bonding body and brain; a source of power and a shelter from the rain.
For twenty years we grew together in a symbiosis that created a man--body teaching brain, and brain responding to train.

Then an unkind cut, damaged the link, and my body began to sink into the nothingness defined, by loss of the mind.
My memory is strong, as I focus on the place, where my body moved with such grace.
And nothing happens when I call--nothing at all.
Deprived of their lifeblood, cord nerves entwined, die one by one until none remain.

My brain grows depressed as it attempts to reach, organs no longer within its teach.
Organs that die, little by little, with no word from a severed mind.
One nerve, then another, shrivels and dies.
The once mighty river of power is reduced to a thread.
And when the thread breaks, I will be dead.

A head without a body is like a body without a head....dead...don't cut me off from that life-giving thread.

Trust (Russ)

Your words begin to mean nothing to me,
You continue to lie under your breathe.
Had me convinced that you were different,
Yet here I am, with broken trust.

My heart torn out from the center of my chest,
Ripped into a million pieces.
You promised me over and over,
That you would change for the better.

But I soon came to realize,
That your no different then then the last time we met.
Each event replayed itself,
And each time you betrayed me.

Again I am standing here in this empty hole,
Listening to the echoes of your promises fade away.
I really thought you would change for me,
I really believed that you cared for me.

Oh, how wrong I was,
To put my trust in the likes of you.
The pain I am feeling now,
Is the pain I’ll forever retain.

Over and over again,
I am left with nothing.
No matter what I do,
I always get the blunt end of the stick.

Normally I would say I’m to blame,
But sadly I do not deserve this claim.
My eyes have reopened,
To never again let you gain my trust.

In the world we live in now,
Has very little, if any.
Able bodies that I can trust,
Is it so, that only I can earn this trust?

I don’t believe I’ll ever truly understand the meaning of trust,
I won’t live by this word.
For its meaning is far to easily broken,
And very difficult to fix.

No longer will I allow trust to govern my life,
No longer will I allow your love in my life.
I stand here alone,
With a broken trust.

My last words to whom it may concern,
My trust in you was a privilege.
You continued to break the very string,
That held my trust for you.

In the end,
You betrayed me with more than I can say.
Left me,
With a broken trust and a broken heart.